Saturday, October 25, 2008

as the waves swept away the pain
dreams and goals at bay, remain
for every drop of rain that falls
a tear from my eyes rolls


two down, one to go
something so simple but hard to do
just one click and it's set
all done, no way to reset

minutes tick, seconds pass
is it right, i'm still in doubt
is it becoz this is the last
the best and most treasured at that

there were good times, in fairness
there were shares of laughter and happiness
other times there were madness
oftentimes, i've witnessed craziness

so now with mind made up
i say my farewell, at last
three years have been enough
being on the roller-coaster ride.

happy face...

lump in my throat
knot in my heart
tears in my eyes
sorrows and pains...

im creating an imaginary chest
where i could store them to rest
as i struggle to fight
for this thing called life...

until i open that chest again
in there, my feelings remain
for now, i'd put on a mask
until when, i'd dare not ask.

to those who are left behind..

through the years i've gained
a lot of friends in this game
but just like the sand in your hands
you could only hold on to 'just some'...

those within my grasp
i found out, are just a few
of all those who claimed to be true
and will forever stand by you

but i don't need a dozen
i've already found my gems
you maybe less than ten
but i am forever grateful
you all,have been so faithful...

bittersweet cheezecake...

should i, or should i not?
tears welled up in my eyes
as i contemplate...
am i ready to press on 'delete'?

something that has become a part of me
too many times, they've seen within me,
heart bared, soul freed
im havin' a tough time indeed

but holdin' on brings back those times
moments that should be left behind
feelings, should be buried
mem'ries, need not be recovered

now tears run down my cheeks
as i bid goodbye to my precious 'cheezecake'
with confused mind and aching heart
i now put to rest, my fingers finally lie in state.

Friday, October 17, 2008

damsel in distress...


flowing freely

down your cheeks...

as you wish

to wash away

the pain and dismay

not a bit of care,

hope not,

will u dare?

Sunday, October 5, 2008

echoes of the heart...

sometimes you wudnt be needing echos to know what your heart is telling you...
most often than not, silence makes you hear the heartbeat even better.

Saturday, October 4, 2008

while i was on vacation...

i realized that i never lose hope on the person i chose to give my love...if that person will always be the reason for my heartaches...who cares? that person is still the reason why my heart beats...

Wednesday, October 1, 2008


your buzz, your smile
your laughter,'been awhile
my heart skipped a beat
nearly knocked me off my feet
as i hear u call my name
i remember you just the same
your voice echoes in my mind
i miss you, why do u choose to be blind?

there are times when... just want to close your eyes and never open them again just want to retreat to some far-away land

and live the life totally different from yours just want to take a deep breath and never get to breathe again just want to forget everything and never get to think of anything just want to pretend you're someone else and never get to be yourself

......And then there are times when you don't know what to do,

there's no one to talk to

.....and you think the best thing for you, is say a prayer and just GO...

this is nonsense....a product of a confused and troubled mind, i guess...

don't just writing w/o really thinking...gosh.....

is he really out there?

everyone has a vision of a perfect moment with 'the' perfect partner...mine is to wake up to the sound of small rocks being thrown at my bedroom window, and see the person i'll love, standing in the rain, askin' me for eternal love..OR someone who would lead me down the beach, with his hands over my eyes just so i can discover the feel of sand under my feet..OR someone who would wake me up at dawn,without any reason but just to burst out anything and talk, one who cudn't wait another minute to find out what im going to say..well, its just a dream...only in my DREAMs..

you know who you are....

shores never meet yet share the same sand...

the moon and the sun coudn't be one yet cross the same sky...

same with friends who don't meet often,

but never stop bein' good friends...

i thank you so much,

im blowin a kiss your way....mwaahh!

pictures of life...


is like posing for pictures,

we pose the way we want to be seen by others...

but stolen shots are better,

they capture who we really are...

the right to smile genuinely...

no point in sacrificing your happiness

when it does not conform to what your heart dictates...

as everyone is created uniquely

everyone does get a right

to choose where they'd be happy...

if it ensures lifetime happiness

then go for it!

you wouldnt want a miserable life

faking the world with smiles...

extremely Special...

without friends,

you are like a book

that no one bothers

to take a look...

but as long as I am here,

you are not only a BESTSELLER...

you'll always be my



sun sets, the sun rises

same ol'souls, same ol' faces

everyone, get done with the errands

its weekend, go out & have some fun!

simply bittersweet....

we are all guilty

of saving old messages

from someone

who became really special in our lives...

going to familiar places

gives us that small twinge

in our hearts

and smile in our faces...

it's simply bitterweet...

coz everytime that person

crosses our minds,

we remember the instances

when we were completely happy...

and at the same time the sadness

after realizing those instances were over...


you yearn for someone

not because you want to be complete...

but because you want to add more C O L O R to your life...

that person musn't necessarily break through your busy schedule...

that person must INSPIRE you to manage your time well instead...

you see, its not a matter of distance and time
it's more like friendship on a higher level...

it's smiling alone

every once in a while

knowing that somewhere,

somehow, someone smiles

at the thought of YOU!

just know....

take time knowing you deserve it...

breathe deep knowing the beauty of life around you...

and most of all, love yourself knowing that you are loved...

simply authentic...

be a mirror of the positives

in the world around you

when you think of perfection

see your authentic self

you have so many gifts to share...

know that i'm behind you

and beside you

ready and willing

to help along the way...

the G word...

someone spun a web of lies

though she knows it wasnt at all nice

now she faces the consequences

and tries to build her own defenses

"thank you for being there everyday,

the laughter, the tears, shared along the way

we've reached the ending,

together, we just cudnt stay"

i'm really sorry...",

that's all she cud ever say

now its time to say the word

and get back to her own world

where she cud be just herself

a place she's always been safe

Goodbye...from her...

Sorry...from me...

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

morning smiles...

it's a great feeling

to wake up everyday

knowing there is

someonethinking of you,

and waiting for you

to open your eyes

and see a smile,

you smile back and say...

good morning to me...

finally, you're mine!

sure am glad to have U!

an awesome Sunday....

after 20 years, i was again reunited with my high school's truly a great feeling to know that after a long time of not seeing each other, there's still that closeness and the special bond that we used to seems just like yesterday that we were having lunch at the cafeteria located at the back of our campus, or that we were lined up at the waiting shed waiting for the bell to ring...sigh...time really flies so fast, and how we've grown and lead different lives and yet, we still managed to find time and have a wonderful get-together such as this one. i really hope this wouldnt be the last and that we'll seee each other again, soon...with all the others who were not able to join us today... here's to the next 20 years... and more...of great friendship!cheers!


An angel of truth and a dream of fiction,

woman is a bundle of contradiction,

She's afraid of a wasp,

will scream at a mouse,

But will tackle a stranger

alone in the house.

Sour as vinegar,

sweet as a rose,

She'll kiss you one minute,

then turn up her nose,

She'll win you in rage,

enchant you in silk,

She'll be stronger than brandy,

milder than milk.

At times she'll be vengeful,

merry and sad,

She'll hate you like poison,

and love you like mad.


temptation's trail....











are you on track?

it's your call!

it is...

...what we hold in our handsthat is ours,
it is what is left when we open our hands and let go...

Sunday, September 21, 2008

be still,my heart...

oh please my heart
don't beat so fast

there's nothing for us
to be in a rush

let's take our rest
for this is the best

my heart, be stronger
remain sane forever...

Saturday, September 20, 2008

just want you to know...

we may not be the best of what we are

we may nottalk often

you may have problems i do not know

but i justwant youto know

no matter how difficult things can be

in the long run,

YOU still have ME!



sometimes are like raindrops...

the bravest thing ever created by God

simply because..

they are never afraid of falling!

ever wonder why we cry?

"when dreams

won't fit our eyes,

they fall

and become tears..."

take sometime...

to smile when you're sad

to rest when you're tired

to love if you're feeling empty

& to let go if you need to...

time endures,

time heals

in this life,

just take sometime

for yourself

and always take time

to pray...

it really works!

Saturday, September 13, 2008

'twill be OK..

when you love someone
you give everythin'
without thinkin' twice
you cry over the things
that pains you
but still you just say
" i'm OK! "
even if it hurts...

cry no more,
whine no more
be ready for
what your heart
is designed for

the misery
reaches its end
time has come
for your heart
to mend...

now i know that...

"Love dies in our hearts but it can grow again if we learn to accept our destiny and give time a chance to heal our wounds. Let us always remember that we cannot always have what we want. We are blessed when we find love but we should still be thankful when we lose it, for what are denied of are things not meant for us, and what we have been given are the ones destined forever. "
" there are some things that we never want to let go of...people we never want to leave behind,But keep in mind that letting go is not the end of the's just the beginning of a new life! "

this is something to think about...

as imperfect people, we make mistakes
we drop the ball, miss the mark
fall on our faces, use too many cliches...

failure can make us feel inadequate,
especially when we compare ourselves
to others who seem to be livin' effectively...

when you feel like a failure,
remember that God is with you
focus on Him
and know that He will be there
to cheer you on,
pick you up
and dust you off
when you fall...

He won't hold your failures
against you
so don't hold them
against yourself....

rain, rain, go away!

once again, the sound of heavy rain awakened me, and as i opened my eyes, my mind started workin' immediately, enumerating all the things lined up for today...things i need to do and finish. it would be a busy day, i have friends coming over this weekend and so i need to prepare for their arrival...i've decided that nothing should ever, dampen my mood, even a "different kind of good weather"...lately i've been in a lot of stressful situations and this time i want to free my mind from all those things and look forward to our most awaited get-together...but alas, the moment i fired up my pc,and logged in here, my spirits went down as something caught my eye...i've been trying not to be affected by anything anymore, but i guess it's the weather that made me vulnerable once previous entry said that "when you plan on getting even, you're just letting that person continue to hurt you.."...i've no plans of getting even, never even thought of that actually..and tried so hard not to feel any animosity towards anyone...but still...aahhhhh, i just wish the rain would stop...


that when you plan
to get even with someone
you're only letting
that someone continue to hurt you...

that ignoring the facts
do not change the facts...

that the easiest way
to grow as a person
is to surround yourself
with people smarter than you are...

that no one is perfect
until you fall in love with them...

and learn...
that life is tough,
but you can be TOUGHER...
never knew
this feeling existed
but just human
took me awhile,
but now i can't deny...
.....this strange feeling is creeping in...

i made it!

A very long struggle for something so hard to achieve has passed. It seems like yesterday thatI heard a familiar voice telling me things I hadn't seen coming...the moments that followed caught me being drowned in a darkened sea of confusion,shock,shattered dreams and broken vows...that was total heartbreak and I never thought there would still be an end to my misery...'twas indeed a very painful thing to go through but like what everybody says, time heals all wounds;there's a light at the end of the tunnel;there is always a rainbow after the rain...and all those positive quotes abt moving on...true enough,I've finally seen the bright side, after all those grey skies I had been staring for so long...I can now proudly say I'm fully recovered, and I'm glad that I have accepted what fate has brought me...I remember a quote that says " The longest journey begins with the first step.." ... that first step has indeed been taken, and I know it wouldn't take so long before I reach my final destination.:)

my prayer...

what is dark in me;
what is weak in me;
what is broken in me;
what is bruised in me;
HEAL what is sick in me;
STRAIGHTEN what is crooked in me;
whatever peace and love have died in me

in his arms...

looking small and very vulnerable
knees drawn up, bare toes peeping
big dark eyes asking for answers
a sign of hope she kept on searching...

'twas one tear that started the flood
rimmed the lower lashes,misery in a drop
collected at one corner,a fluttey blink
sent it all coursing down her cheeks...

"im sorry", was said gracelessly,
but from the heart, so obviously
anguish broke like summer storm
shaking her shoulders,soaking his shirtfront...

tears were all cried out
she was no longer afraid
and then realization hit her
there's no other place to go......
except in his arms.
if you can't get over it,
have every right to torture yourself...

Thursday, July 24, 2008


Cause I'm lost
There's no turning back
I keep pushing forward
But my heart's still trapped

I keep these feelings
locked deep inside
Keep trying to run
But there's no where to hide

In my heart
Here they'll stay
These dark secrets
I'll never say

In a daze
No one's amused
Hurting again
I'm so confused

On the floor
My soul is bleeding
In my dreams
Silently screaming

Here and now
My heart is slowing
In my mind
This pain's still growing

so it's my first...

finally! my first entry!..i sooo much want to write a perfect blog for this but at the moment it seems that is way far from happening...all i can do is stare at my screen and watch as these letters seem to dance their way into this box. been here for hours and still, none of those perfect thoughts with equally perfect words. so much for an ultra-intelligent, mind-boggling, heart-shattering and nose-bleeding masterpiece, i'm totally doomed! geeze, i gotta think, think, think....oh my, how can words betray me, just when i need them??? well, i gotta run,run,run...and hope that i'd come back with something worth reading.